With Love

Maybe it has been months (or years) I have stopped writing. Same old reason, and I'm not gonna say it again. But now I have all the time I want to write; to fill this blog with things that attracts me, that draws my attention. So bear with me while I share my nonsense with you, people.

I have graduated and now I am officially unemployed. No job, no plan, and to be honest it is kinda depressing for me who basically plan everything from months before. But that is what I am facing now. I supposed to start my Master degree in the UK but one thing led to another, I had to decide to take a year off, which means another year of doing nothing. 

It is (surprisingly) heartbreaking that I can't further my study so soon. I was never a diligent student, I am just lucky it was always in the way. But now I realize, what a blessing it has always been. Sometimes I blame it to my passport that is not as powerful as the red ones, although I know I shouldn't. Everything happens for a reason, right?

In the mean time, I hope this could keep me sane.

With Love,

Sastya Wardani

Back

I am back! HOME!

I'm so glad it has finally over! No more problematic visa application, no more lonely feeling.

Although what happened, I still have a place for KL in my heart. No matter what, I grew up to be a more mature person (basically to be an adult, as I have lived there since I was 17) in the heart of the neighbor country. 

I still have few outfit photos I took with my housemate before I left. So glad I have an housemate who loves and is interested in photography, or at least willing to take pictures of me. I should not talk so much, so here it is.

Dress - H&M, Boots - Zara, Scarf as Headband - McQueen

See you!

Sastya

The Start of Something New

I'm back after a month holiday in Indonesia, where the internet is either running slow or not working at all. School starts only in March but I had to come earlier to settle my visa. Yes, I still don't have my visa yet. After all these 6 months of waiting and suffering, they decided to finally do the endorsement. Before I left Indonesia, I thought this endorsement process would be very easy and relieving. But I was wrong. The first hour I put my feet on Malaysia's ground, the whole chaos has decided to haunt me. I spent 3 hours at the airport's immigration office as I didn't prepare my flight ticket back. I did have the plan when to come back, but not the ticket. I don't want to blame anyone here, but I was just following my school's order. Yet when I called the international student service officer, I got not help or assistance on what to do. It was the longest 3 hours of my life. Glad I have upgrade my skill in typing on my touch-screen phone secretly, and I managed to message my sister to buy me a ticket home. I just couldn't spend another minute there. It was scary. And people there give this frightening feeling. No words could describe how I felt that time. 

The whole chaos didn't stop there. The next day I found out few major changes in the rules which I wasn't informed. I had been trying to know any updates throughout my holiday by emailing them, calling, even I had to whatsapp them, which I would rather not to, in other circumstances. Yet nothing was told. I thought the 6 months I have spent would be a waste. I thought I had to repeat the whole application process and would be stuck for another 6 months. 

Ended up I didn't have to. Through few arguments and pointing-fingers, I managed to get someone settle all the matters for me.

But I am still upset. I just have never felt trapped and helpless before. It felt like as if I was in a jail, but there was no bars or  walls around me. I had to be cautious all the time just in case there's a police or a road block or something. No, I wasn't an illegal student here. But not having my passport with me while I'm in other country, especially without a proper visa, I could not prove my good intention of staying here. 

Anyways, what has been done is done. So glad this would be my last sem here (hopefully, and I will make it my last sem). I can't wait to move to a colder country for my postgraduate degree. Better, to a country with better and more effective student visa application procedures. I'm so excited for that, my outfits lately has been very cold-weather friendly. 

Hat - Cotton On, Necklace - New Look, Top - New Look, Skirt - Kitschen, Bracelets - H&M, Ring - YSL, Shoes - Charles & Keith

Till the next time!

Sastya Wardani